How Did I Get Here

This blog started about 7 years ago with the purpose of posting girls in diapers that I found online, hence the name:  Diapergirlpictures.  I’ve been looking at pictures of girls in diapers since around 1996, when I got my first Internet account.  I browsed usenet groups, and early website galleries at incredibly slow speeds, but learning that I wasn’t the only person who was hopelessly obsessed with diapers was amazing.

So how does a person become obsessed with diapers?  I remember a few things  from when I was a prepubescent that I’ve always thought were clues.

I was incredibly afraid of being embarrassed, like the idea of being made fun of or being the center of attention scared the shit out of me.  At the same time I found it secretly so exciting that I would daydream about being caught in embarrassing situations.

Being tied up or somehow constrained secretly fascinated me.  The idea of being helpless somehow excited me in ways I couldn’t understand.

Feeling enclosed or wrapped up made me very happy.  I liked blankets and rolling up in them.  Once I remember experimenting with wrapping a blanket around my crouch really tight.

The idea of being humiliated, wrapped up and being helpless lead me to diapers.  What could be more humiliating then being wrapped in a diaper, and trapped in a playpen or crib.  I started fixating on diapers and would ride my bike to the stores just to walk down the baby isle and look at them.   I tried wearing all my underwear at once and fashioning diapers from all manner of materials.  Pillow cases worked great.  Soon I was stealing diapers from packages and then I discovered adult diapers.

All of this was non sexual because I really didn’t even know what sex was, let alone how to masturbate.  I had lots of crushes on girls, but I was beginning to realize something, when it came to love, girls, relationships, my mind was more feminine or at least submissive, than a male was culturally suppose to be.  I wanted to be noticed, I wanted to be asked out, I obsessively crushed over girls but never had the courage to do anything about it.

When it came to my secret diaper girl obsession I discovered something else.  I found that I was was as turned on and excited by sissy pictures as I was by girls in diapers.  I also began to realize that when I wore diapers myself and imagined myself as a baby it was always a babygirl.

Still I never thought about my gender, the idea of it was so foreign to me that I never even considered it.  Was I more of a female than male?

Well it turns out my real life is pretty normal, I found a true love, got married, got a job, went to college, got a better job, and up until we found out we couldn’t have children our lives were normal.  My wife knew about my diaper obsession, but I kept it really buried because she found it weird.

I went on doing the same ol things, secretly buying diapers from a few out of town pharmacies every few months, searching for them at thrift stores and wearing them whenever I could. And of course spending way to much time online looking at diaper girl pictures.

I had gigabytes of saved diaper girl pics on my hard drive, and I’d built up a huge stash of cloth and disposable diapers, it was really too much and my wife got upset, especially when I begin leaving things like pacifiers, baby blankets, and bottles around the house.  Her biggest fear was getting caught.  I took her advice and purged it all.

It wasn’t the first time, but it was the biggest, and I really regret it, especially the loss of all those vintage images that I’ll never be able to recover.

Of course it wasn’t a month later I was out buying diapers again, but something strange happened about a year ago.  I discovered cross dressing.  11 months ago I bought my first dress, it was 1 dollar on clearance at Wal-Mart and it was from the little girls department.  I just noticed it randomly while walking by and thought, I wonder if that would fit me.  It did.

A month later I had several more dresses from thrift stores, panties, bras, wigs and makeup.  I wasn’t going to win a pageant, but from a distance a mostly blind person might think they were seeing a woman.  Most importantly I had opened up to my wife, and included her, it took awhile to get used to be she found she liked having a shopping “girlfriend”  not that I would ever get dressed up and go shopping with her, but even dressed as myself it was fun for both of us to look at clothes together.

I went through a few months where I lost interest in crossdressing and diapers, I was just to busy, to much worry, and not enough time.  But now I’m feeling the pull again.  I love to take photos and write about this… fetish, lifestyle, style, interest, whatever you want to call it.  Look out for new content.

 

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Crinklz ABDL Diaper Review

Our Little Girl was falling behind on her chores so to motivate her we dressed her up in her tutu and told her to vacuum like a balerina.  It worked and got her moving.

 

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Since she had been wearing a single Crinklz diaper all day and we could see how wet it was from the swelling under her onesie we decided it would be a great time to do a review.

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The Crinklz diaper is hands down the best ABDL diaper we’ve used.  It actually feels like removing a real Huggies or Pampers from the pack back before cloth backed diapers.  When you take them out of the pack you are struck by how tightly packed in they are, how thin they seem, how packed the padding inside is, and how heavy the diaper is.  It easily weighs twice a regular adult diaper.

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Nothing particularly special about the tapes, I wish it had the reinforced landing zone, but the tapes stick fine, and the double system means you can adjust if you need to.  You’ll find the tall leakguards you would expect an abdl diaper to have, There is also nothing particularly  special about the fit, it’s a bit higher then some, but not as high as others.  The large fit Ourlittlegirl perfectly and the inclusion of both front and rear waistbands helped keep the diaper snug.

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Where the diaper begins to stand out is when you use it, I’ll let her explain.  “The first time you wet it you feel almost nothing, just dryness.  The wetness is soaked up into the diaper instantly and locked away.  The next time you wet it you might feel a tiny bit of moisture but soon you just feel a wonderful warm bludge around you.  The more you wet the bigger and better it feels.”

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After 6 hours of activity the diaper was swelled up like nothing I had seen in a single diaper.  Our little girl was in bliss as her tender parts were swaddled and as we took pictures she couldn’t help but begin grinding the diaper.  Then her naughty hands were feeling her little nipples and she began to moan sweetly.  I got a few underskirt images and she kept pulling her legs tight finding the diaper irresistible.

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We presented Our Girl a challenge, we placed her on her knees and placed a single pillow under the big swollen diaper then told her to grind it until she came.  It only took a few minutes and she was moaning and cumming.

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We only have one complaint with the Crinklz.  While they have a very nicely designed cover, its too furry for us.  We are not furries, I don’t mind cute animals, but the Crinklz is nothing but cute animals.  I want nursery prints, I think we all like nearly every other ABDL diaper’s print better, but still it’s much cuter then white.

Besides their amazing performance, the crinklz are actually for affordable.  28 bucks for 15 diapers and now they come in 3 different “furry” prints.  Got to Northshore care and order some, you won’t regret it.