How Did I Get Here

This blog started about 7 years ago with the purpose of posting girls in diapers that I found online, hence the name:  Diapergirlpictures.  I’ve been looking at pictures of girls in diapers since around 1996, when I got my first Internet account.  I browsed usenet groups, and early website galleries at incredibly slow speeds, but learning that I wasn’t the only person who was hopelessly obsessed with diapers was amazing.

So how does a person become obsessed with diapers?  I remember a few things  from when I was a prepubescent that I’ve always thought were clues.

I was incredibly afraid of being embarrassed, like the idea of being made fun of or being the center of attention scared the shit out of me.  At the same time I found it secretly so exciting that I would daydream about being caught in embarrassing situations.

Being tied up or somehow constrained secretly fascinated me.  The idea of being helpless somehow excited me in ways I couldn’t understand.

Feeling enclosed or wrapped up made me very happy.  I liked blankets and rolling up in them.  Once I remember experimenting with wrapping a blanket around my crouch really tight.

The idea of being humiliated, wrapped up and being helpless lead me to diapers.  What could be more humiliating then being wrapped in a diaper, and trapped in a playpen or crib.  I started fixating on diapers and would ride my bike to the stores just to walk down the baby isle and look at them.   I tried wearing all my underwear at once and fashioning diapers from all manner of materials.  Pillow cases worked great.  Soon I was stealing diapers from packages and then I discovered adult diapers.

All of this was non sexual because I really didn’t even know what sex was, let alone how to masturbate.  I had lots of crushes on girls, but I was beginning to realize something, when it came to love, girls, relationships, my mind was more feminine or at least submissive, than a male was culturally suppose to be.  I wanted to be noticed, I wanted to be asked out, I obsessively crushed over girls but never had the courage to do anything about it.

When it came to my secret diaper girl obsession I discovered something else.  I found that I was was as turned on and excited by sissy pictures as I was by girls in diapers.  I also began to realize that when I wore diapers myself and imagined myself as a baby it was always a babygirl.

Still I never thought about my gender, the idea of it was so foreign to me that I never even considered it.  Was I more of a female than male?

Well it turns out my real life is pretty normal, I found a true love, got married, got a job, went to college, got a better job, and up until we found out we couldn’t have children our lives were normal.  My wife knew about my diaper obsession, but I kept it really buried because she found it weird.

I went on doing the same ol things, secretly buying diapers from a few out of town pharmacies every few months, searching for them at thrift stores and wearing them whenever I could. And of course spending way to much time online looking at diaper girl pictures.

I had gigabytes of saved diaper girl pics on my hard drive, and I’d built up a huge stash of cloth and disposable diapers, it was really too much and my wife got upset, especially when I begin leaving things like pacifiers, baby blankets, and bottles around the house.  Her biggest fear was getting caught.  I took her advice and purged it all.

It wasn’t the first time, but it was the biggest, and I really regret it, especially the loss of all those vintage images that I’ll never be able to recover.

Of course it wasn’t a month later I was out buying diapers again, but something strange happened about a year ago.  I discovered cross dressing.  11 months ago I bought my first dress, it was 1 dollar on clearance at Wal-Mart and it was from the little girls department.  I just noticed it randomly while walking by and thought, I wonder if that would fit me.  It did.

A month later I had several more dresses from thrift stores, panties, bras, wigs and makeup.  I wasn’t going to win a pageant, but from a distance a mostly blind person might think they were seeing a woman.  Most importantly I had opened up to my wife, and included her, it took awhile to get used to be she found she liked having a shopping “girlfriend”  not that I would ever get dressed up and go shopping with her, but even dressed as myself it was fun for both of us to look at clothes together.

I went through a few months where I lost interest in crossdressing and diapers, I was just to busy, to much worry, and not enough time.  But now I’m feeling the pull again.  I love to take photos and write about this… fetish, lifestyle, style, interest, whatever you want to call it.  Look out for new content.

 

Crinklz ABDL Diaper Review

Our Little Girl was falling behind on her chores so to motivate her we dressed her up in her tutu and told her to vacuum like a balerina.  It worked and got her moving.

 

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Since she had been wearing a single Crinklz diaper all day and we could see how wet it was from the swelling under her onesie we decided it would be a great time to do a review.

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The Crinklz diaper is hands down the best ABDL diaper we’ve used.  It actually feels like removing a real Huggies or Pampers from the pack back before cloth backed diapers.  When you take them out of the pack you are struck by how tightly packed in they are, how thin they seem, how packed the padding inside is, and how heavy the diaper is.  It easily weighs twice a regular adult diaper.

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Nothing particularly special about the tapes, I wish it had the reinforced landing zone, but the tapes stick fine, and the double system means you can adjust if you need to.  You’ll find the tall leakguards you would expect an abdl diaper to have, There is also nothing particularly  special about the fit, it’s a bit higher then some, but not as high as others.  The large fit Ourlittlegirl perfectly and the inclusion of both front and rear waistbands helped keep the diaper snug.

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Where the diaper begins to stand out is when you use it, I’ll let her explain.  “The first time you wet it you feel almost nothing, just dryness.  The wetness is soaked up into the diaper instantly and locked away.  The next time you wet it you might feel a tiny bit of moisture but soon you just feel a wonderful warm bludge around you.  The more you wet the bigger and better it feels.”

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After 6 hours of activity the diaper was swelled up like nothing I had seen in a single diaper.  Our little girl was in bliss as her tender parts were swaddled and as we took pictures she couldn’t help but begin grinding the diaper.  Then her naughty hands were feeling her little nipples and she began to moan sweetly.  I got a few underskirt images and she kept pulling her legs tight finding the diaper irresistible.

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We presented Our Girl a challenge, we placed her on her knees and placed a single pillow under the big swollen diaper then told her to grind it until she came.  It only took a few minutes and she was moaning and cumming.

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We only have one complaint with the Crinklz.  While they have a very nicely designed cover, its too furry for us.  We are not furries, I don’t mind cute animals, but the Crinklz is nothing but cute animals.  I want nursery prints, I think we all like nearly every other ABDL diaper’s print better, but still it’s much cuter then white.

Besides their amazing performance, the crinklz are actually for affordable.  28 bucks for 15 diapers and now they come in 3 different “furry” prints.  Got to Northshore care and order some, you won’t regret it.

Solution for Long Term Diaper Wearing

I recently experimented with wearing a single diaper for what is for me a long time and wanted to share the results.  I wanted to wear all day and not have to worry about the diaper being noticed, falling apart, or leaking and all the while I intended to be very active.  My new favorite affordable diaper is the Tranquilty ATN which I ordered from Wal-Mart.com.  At $8.36 per 12 and free store pickup they are a great deal.  The only downside is that they are only available in medium and I usually buy large size diapers.

Thankfully I can wear a medium and there are some benefits to the smaller size.  The diaper doesn’t rise very high, there are less extra plastic sides flapping around, and less bulk in general.  The Tranquilty ATN is a really well made diaper, it’s not very thick but is well packed with super absorbent gel and the padding seems to resist clumping and falling apart.  They have tall leakguards and seem to do a really good job of locking wetness away.

One of the first things I noticed when wearing the Tranquility ATN is how the plastic is both really quiet and really soft.  These diapers were actually quieter under my pants then a cloth backed Attends Overnight, and about the same quietness as a thinner cheap cloth backed diaper.  The second thing I could tell wearing these is that they really, really, don’t leak.  The last thing is that the tapes are really, really secure.  It has a double tape system for re tightening but I generally don’t need to.

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So for my extended wear I needed to be really discreet as I was going to be wearing and using the diaper around alot of people.  I placed a Tranquility top liner pad in the ATN to boost absorbency and put the diaper on as snug as I could.  I wore a Maidenform shaping mid rise panty over the diaper, it’s a very firm and pretty much completely hid the diaper’s lines and silenced it.  Over that I wore some boxxers.

I put this in around 11 AM after doing some outdoor activity and intense exercise which I didn’t want to be diapered for.  I was somewhat dehydrated which helped alot because I was really worried about leaks and wouldn’t be in a position to change for hours.  Over the course of the next 10 hours I went to several places in public, did alot of chores, and went on a 8 mile bike ride all the while trying my best not to hold my bladder.

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By early evening the diaper felt damp but only really in the front where I wet.  by later evening it felt a bit bulky in my front and wet.  At ten o’clock after wearing the diaper 11 hours and wetting it several times I went to check it out and take some pictures before taking it off.extended wear 3

The tight fitting shapewear panty keeps the diaper really wrapped to your body and wetness is nearly injected into the padding, instead of leaking down through a more loose fitting diaper and pooling in the bottom.  Because of this the front padding was soaked, in fact the wetness had spread from the center in all directions equally.  The booster pad wasn’t even completely soaked yet.  I could have worn the diaper for many more hours though I may have started experiencing leaks at the top.  The bottom and rear of the diaper were completely dry.

Because the shapewear kept the diaper super snug there was no chaffing and comfort wasn’t an issue.  I was stunned by how completely intact the padding was, there was no clumping.  It performed exactly as a quality baby diaper where the padding expands but stays put.

One key thing to remember is that I was somewhat dehydrated for this entire day, I didn’t avoid drinking, in fact I tried to drink extra, but I spent alot of time outside in the sun and was losing fluid through sweat.  If I had been less active and produced more urine I’m not sure if the diaper would have held up that long.

 

LittleForBig Onesie Review

We reccently got Our Little Girl a new onesie from LittleForBig.  In the past we had always made our own onesies from long pajama shirts but we’ve always been curious about how a real onesie might fit and feel.  new onesie 3

We went with the ADULT BABY SNAP CROTCH ROMPER ONESIE – GIRAFFE AND ZOO ANIMALS PATTERN for two reasons, it has a very cute and authentic baby print, and it’s designed with the overlapping shoulder flaps that many baby onesies have.  These allow the garment to be snapped and pulled over the legs and up the torso and instead of over the head.  The idea being that if the onesie gets messy from a diaper blowout you can just pull it down instead of making a bigger mess on baby’s head.  It looks really cute too.

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As you can imagine Our Little Girl was exuberent to model the new onesie.  Here’s our thoughts on it.  For 25 dollars this is a very good deal in our opinion.  It seems to be very well made, and is exactly what you would get if you enlarged a toddler onesie.  The tail is a big long and easy for our little girl to pull up between her legs to snap.  The plastic snaps are good quality and hold well.  The fabric is stretchy but not too stretchy and the print is super cute.

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For sizes we went with a XXXL for our little girl, she could have probably worn a XXL but it may have been very stretched out.  The fit is in our opinion cut for women, they have alot of room for big hips and are a bit tight around the belly.  Length is suppose to be the determining factor for size and guys I might suggest hips is where you really want to focus, because these will stretch to fit, but you want it to support a wet diaper and it needs to fit kind of snug around the crotch.

The product came in super cute packaging and with a really cute printed catalog. Even the tags are cute.  The pacakage was discretely shipped by Amazon. It’s a really special buying experience in our opinion.  Overall I would highly suggest Littleforbig, and so would Our Little Girl.